The truth, Im scared that this man, who the universe keeps brining back into my life is really some how meant to be in my life. The whole, let it go and it comes back to you thought. We have totally let go before, gone years without talking, and some how, some way we run into each other and here we are bonded again. This is the third time and each time its me that pushes away. What if this time, instead of pushing away, I just hold. I hold and see.