Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror
And wondered is this really you
Is this really what you've become
Thru all the everyday battles and struggles
Is this how your gonna live your life
Im still a victim of my past
It haunts me everyday
It feels like forever since i felt normal
I dont really know if i ever even felt normal for me
Its just everything isnt the way i thought it would be
Nothing turned out alright
I sometimes ask myself what do i have to live for
I still ask myself that
I live in a prison of broken dreams and empty promises
My life just goes in one big vicious cycle and i dont really see a way out
I just dont see that stopping me
I havent really wrote like this in years
I could show you what i was writing before and it was like i was crazy
I dont even know if i really was or wasnt
Everything is all mixed in gray
Nothing is black or white
I look at myself or try not to look at myself everyday
I just really dont want this to be the truth of my life
I wanted so much more but i can barely make it out of my front door now
Im just lost in this type of vertigo phase where nothing seems real or fake
Its all in just bits and pieces
Nothing is clear
I just hope that somewhere along this life of mine that things fall into place
Ive been thru too much to always have to struggle like this all the time
Its just i dont really know if thats the type of life i was born to have
All my life its been one hardship after the other
I guess that will be just another chapter in my life
good or bad but will the main character in my story make it
or will he just be another tragedy waiting to happen