Jump to content

cr44hill

Members
 View Profile  See their activity

  • Posts

    116

  • Joined

About cr44hill

  • Birthday 07/24/1972

cr44hill's Achievements

Rookie

Rookie (2/14)

  • First Post
  • Collaborator
  • Conversation Starter
  • Week One Done
  • One Month Later

Recent Badges

3

Reputation

  1. cr44hill
    Day 28 - tough one as this is about the time last year that we started to see each other again (before the 2nd BU in early March). This week and the holiday weekend will be really hard I can tell already. I have stuff planned and am enjoying myself more, but then I can't help to think how much MORE fun and enjoyable the same activities would be with her, sheez. Plus the questions about what is she doing? who with? are popping up. this is just a hard day I suppose.
  2. cr44hill
    Hades, I am really sorry to hear this. Did I read your post right, you would consider going back to her? Hope I'm wrong on that one. Do you know if there was another guy, maybe that coke connection guy? that just sucks, I feel for you man. When was the last time you talked to her?
  3. cr44hill
    Brian, How long has it been since the BU? It's about 4 months for me, sucks still. Happy Belated Birthday. cr44hill
  4. cr44hill
    NC Day 3 Just got back from the grocery store, it's close to her place and it bothers me that when I am in that part of town I feel like I have to be on the look-out. It's close to me too, we are only a mile apart. Maybe my personal training session in an hour will help. I need to continue getting in shape, the beers on friday night and pizza yesterday didn't help but they were so good.
  5. cr44hill
    I'm sorry to hear that audrey, we will get through this, what other choice is there. My phone just rang, damn, 5 months on from the breakup and I'm still wondering if it is her, sheez.
  6. cr44hill
    Day 2 NC Really tempted to send a text as I'm laying around the house. My date cancelled for tonight which is good in a way as this past week I realized I'm not ready to date yet. I need to try to get over her and work on myself in the meantime. It's hard as I do not have a lot of friends to do stuff with and my family is in another town.
  7. cr44hill
    NC Day 1 Sent an email yesterday, I'm sure I won't hear back from her as she told me 3 weeks ago not to contact her. Dang this is hard! The weekend approaching is not helping. I cannot think of dating at this point. Wonder what she is doing, who is she doing it with and bums me out more. She was my future, and now, I don't know about my future.
  8. cr44hill
    luciole - was it really all a game? how did you find this? why tell now? this is bizarre to say the least. If true, that is pretty damn cruel.
  9. cr44hill
    Jadewhisperer - Congratulations on 4 months! How are you feeling? I know you still miss him but are you moving on at the same time?
  10. cr44hill
    Well, I broke NC last night, I sent her an email just seeing what was going on. She had an interview last week so I asked how it went, it was just an excuse to email her. She had a friendly but of course standard issue reply this morning. I was literally at a breaking point last night, I had to contact her and gave in. But it did give me my fix, for how long, probably not long, a few days. So, at the point, i've gone with a 17-day NC, and this was just a 19-NC. I'm not signing up for the challenge again for awhile. I don't know what my next step is, continue trying to move on, but I almost feel like I put too much pressure on myself, nahh, I just am having a * * * * * of a time getting over her. I will be back here to establish a new NC streak, hopefully in the near future. To everyone out there in NC, a hardy congrats, I really admire you.
  11. cr44hill
    Day 19 I thought I'd be fine after the weekend, with work to distract me. I was WRONG. I have not been able to keep my mind off of her and feel like I want to send her an email. I won't (I don't think) at least not until Day 30 and hopefully later that that. It's just this is the worst I've felt, the most panicky, in at least a week and it caught me off guard. I see where Rap and TRR have been in contact with their ex's (initiated by their ex's) and I'm like "when is my ex going to contact me?! ... I almost broke down in my office after lunch which has never happened, I regained my composure but this is a tough as hell day, sheez!
  12. cr44hill
    I'm with Mustang, I think my ex would be much happier to not hear from me, and she isn't even with someone else (well, according to her, and I tend to believe her) but she is prob. looking for someone else:sad:
  13. cr44hill
    hfc, Congrats on Day 22. Sometimes going away can increase the pain. I think you are smart to wait until you contact her. You know what is best for you, but please make sure you can handle just being friends. Again, nice work. Keep it up!
  14. cr44hill
    Thanks for the feedback everyone. It definitely sounds like a mixed bag on the dating scene which is what I feel it would be like. I think I should go on a few casual dates. I see what Mustang is saying and bronte/TRR too. I know every individual is different. I'm planning to go on a few to test the waters. I don't feel like it's using them, well, I kind of do but who knows what their situation is and where they are coming from. I think I'm trying to tell myself it's ok. I'm so sensitve and fragile now that I assume the other person is the same way. Next weekend should be a start. Slow is the key word here. The pisser is part of me feels like I'm betraying my ex by going out on a few dates, what a sham! Objectively I should be out there doing what I want, but it's that darn emotion again. I'll be sure to report back next Sunday.
  15. cr44hill
    Congrats to Litgirl, Musashi, and TSF(belated) on making one month NC! I am jealous and can't wait to join the club (today is Day 18 for me). Like you, the weekend is really hard for me, I almost didn't go to the running store I usually go to becuase is it near her home. I did go but found myself almost expecting to see her and wondering what I would do if I did. I don't want to operate like this, I live in a huge city and it is almost paranoia. Question for the group: Have you started dating, even casually? I am torn as I feel like it is the spring and I need to do some light dating but when it gets down to it I don't think I'm ready. We broke up in December, then she agreed to go on some dates at the end of February. This got my hopes up obviously, but only for her to call in early March saying she can't do it and she's trying to move on. I accepted this but then sent her a bunch a emails at the end of March. She responded but it was just everyday type of discussoin. Since then I've gone NC. I know my heart needs to heal but my head is almost saying I need to be out there, that it may be theraputic. Anyone else going through this quandry?
×
×
  • Create New...