I am in so much pain right now. My boyfriend of four and half years told me last night that he isnt happy anymore. That he has lost himself and needs to figure things out. I am very scared of loosing him. I love him with all my heart and he say's he loves me. Part of him wants to stay and part of him is scared to. He is coming over today to talk about it... I dont know what to do or say to make him want to stay. I want him to stay with me. I'm okay with taking a break but.. at the same time I dont want to be apart. It's the holiday season and our families love us. My mom wants him here for x-mas his family wants me there. It's so hard to hear this. Specially since it's his battle... he needs to find himself. Is there nothing I can do? Cupples take breaks ...we havent had a break ever. To me taking a break is just taking some space and time for yourself. I guess I need to talk to him about what it means for him.
After all this time I feel so hurt and lonely he is my everything... I don't know what to do or say. I just want this to go away and us be happy again.
We have been together since high school. We where about to start College this semester. Now I don't know what's happening. He is working I'm not... He is my stone. I want a future with him we have talked about it for hours and hours about living together and having a happy family.. and now.. I am left to wonder what's going to happen.
