lozic21

I would X a guy off my list that had their tongue pierced as well.

If you don't do it, or back out, she'll probably talk about you even more.

I'm only 5'5, but I love tall guys...I think it's hot.

I did the same thing, and totally felt like I was back at square one! But, a few days later I feel better...and realize I won't make that mistake again (hopefully) because it only caused me more pain than anything. Stick with it...I'm in the same position as you and it sucks!

So you have confronted him about this?

No offense, but has anyone who doesn't believe in abortion ever been in the situation of this happening? I don't think that anyone can "knock it" until you yourself are in the situation. Because I can assure you, no matter how pro life you are, when it becomes reality, you may have an entirely different outlook.

Well to start off, I wouldn't put anything highly personal in notes at school... just not "safe."

stupidity poor grammar bad teeth/breath rudeness (hurt people's feelings on purpose) lazy or out of shape biggest turn on = sense of humor and pretty eyes!

Ugh, don't you hate that feeling when you look at the pics of when you were happy/loved? I threw A LOT of mine out that had my ex in them when we broke up....then very recently I had to pack stuff up to come back to college and I found my favorite one of us, and I couldn't help but cry. I was tempted to throw it out, but I know one day (hopefully) I'll be able to just look at that picture and not feel any sadness or pain, just the memory of our happiness. That is probably the only picture I have left of him so I didn't want to throw it out and regret it in the future, when I actually am over him, so I put it in the top of my closet where I'll never have to see it unless I really want to. It's so hard to see those old pictures and memories, like a stab in the heart.. You seem like a really great guy O, (plus you're hot on your avitar , seems any girl would be lucky to have you. I am confident you will find someone else when the time is right.

God wouldn't tell you to commit adultury. Anyone can find a scripture in the bible that agrees with their point, even if it was like "its ok to murder b/c... blah blah". I being a christian, highly doubt God wants yo to be with a married man. Do you talk to his wife? She told you they had sex?

No, I totally understand shorty. Heck several months ago I would have probably said the same thing. Thats why I initially did continue to talk to him sometimes, a little out of guilt because of the situation he is in and everything. I didn't want him to get killed and think I hate him or anything. That's a big reason, even though I am extremely mad at him for hurting me--I still told him I love him. But, continuing to talk to him just hurts me more in the long run, so I implimented NC. I do love him very much but it's impossible for me to ever see him in the same way again, or ever be in a relationship with him again. Thanks for your response, I appreciate it!

Yeah, that would bother me too. I think your idea about making up an excuse is a good one.

Yeah, him being in Iraq didn't affect my decision, because frankly I'm pretty sure he probably still e mails this girl--so she can deal with him. If he's mailing her theres no telling who else he is planning on meeting up with after coming home. I told him when I did mail him last night that I could never be with him b/c I don't trust him and never will. However I did tell him that I do love and miss him very much and probably always will have love for him in some way. (he was my first everything). I wouldn't let him call me because I knew it would be too difficult and I would cry on the phone with him. I'm sure he misses all the care packages I sent and letters I would write him every week, not to mention at least talking to him a couple hours a day online. I left it with this last night "I hope you have a safe flight home and I'm proud of you with your new job, I know how excited you are and how hard you have worked for this, I sincerely do hope it goes well, take care of yourself. love you" (he got promoted to another thing which he has always wanted to be involved with...sort of like special forces) The thing that kills me is that I know I will NEVER see him again you know? After almost 4 years and all that we've been through, I will never even see or hear his voice, or laugh again. (There is really no chance of me running into him again seeing that he is going to be sent to North Carolina when he gets back home). Like sometimes I think I would just want to see him, or give him a hug one last time...but I know if I did that I would break down. I should never have even watched that video...he knew it would break me! lol...I'm starting over with NC again today--he has already mailed me twice and I haven't responded. Hopefully starting back up school will help take my mind off him and I can meet new people! Thank you guys for all your replies, truly. It does help me to stay strong since the reality of him coming back to the US is sooo close, I think that makes all this even a little bit tougher. Reading your posts makes me feel a lot better!

WOW! Christmas party on an island to yourselves? Have any job openings? Anyway, if she no longer works for the company, why is she going?

If he is questioning his sexuality do you not find that odd? I mean if my ex had told me he was, or could be gay, that would have been a deal breaker. Not that I have anything against gay people (my best friend and soon to be roommate is a gay guy) but it would weird me out.