Yup, we are at 1.79 a litre today. Bastage. In BC it is well over 2.00 a litre.
I have found that the more confident and less anxious I feel I can now go into public bathrooms and lock the door without seeing spots before my eyes and almost passing out . I have found it doesn’t bother me at all. My brain is changing . For the better . Wow, almost 45 years into recovery and I am still recovering. Some things I don’t think I will ever recover. I didn’t have the life I envisioned. That was stolen in part and decisions in part. We all pay for our decisions. I couldn’t make the most of my intelligence or skills and talents. My life’s potential will never be recovered. My life has and had value . I saved my husband and son from an ugly world . That was my choice to spend my life on them and not myself . Fear and anxiety severely held me back from my potential. I am lucky though to constantly be improving. I was stuck for many decades but I have been very steadily improving for at least 8 years. I think metformin and mirtazapine have made a massive improvement to my anxiety levels. So much so that very seldom I have bad anxiety anymore . When I do have some I can control it and make it go away. With increasing control and mental calmness I am able to think clearly and not with an over emotional mind. I can have clear boundaries that I can enforce and not feel bad . I was reading some of my responses to people’s threads from over a decade ago and yes, I was writing from emotion. I was commonly overwhelmed. I would say I am 90% less emotional and constantly hurt .