Funny I've been doing this without before I ever saw this post.
But I'm on day 28:
It has been easier to do things, like go to the gym, search for better employment, and get out and do things on my own. I made a few tattoo appointments yesterday so another step in the right direction.
I feel like I'm doing these things not only because they are all things I wanted to do, but the extra motivating factor was doing it IN SPITE of my ex-gf. I want her to eventually realize she made the biggest mistake of her life, and I believe it is because we were perfect together, our lives, common interests, personal/life goals, are completely parallel with one-another. We offered each other so much, we are the same but so different. I compare us to the yin-yang symbol and it still stands true for me to this day.
The worst part though is that I still love her with my entire heart and mind, I want to hate her for destroying me (us) but I can't find it anywhere within myself to do so. She ghosted me, gave me no reason for a breakup, and I left her apartment one day not realizing it was going to be the last time I'd be seeing her. That day was August 7th, and I contacted her on the 12th after 5 days of not talking, and that's when I started the NC challenge within myself. It started the 12th and today is the 10th. I'm not sure if I am going to extend it or not but I don't think she's ready to talk to me seeing she hasn't said a word to me other than one text message I got out of her on the 12th (which wasn't a good one by the way). I don't see a life without her and I think she may be talking to someone else, but I can't imagine anyone offering her anymore than what I did. I'm trying to stay strong but it's hard.
I will continue to post here every few days.
