Denguin

Dearest, It's been over a month since I've heard your voice... Longer since I've been able to see your face, hold your hand, or smell your hair. I don't go more than an hour without thinking about how much I miss you. I miss the little things... Trying to make you laugh, hearing your rants, and wishing you a good night. What we had was amazing. Part of you wanted to hang on... I could see it in your eyes, and I could hear it in your voice on the day we went our separate ways. Unfortunately, that part of you wasn't big enough. I can't help but think we'd still be happily together if it weren't for the distance that would force us apart for the next few years. I've been dying to reach out to you... To get any indication that you miss what we once were too. It was nice to have someone to dream with... Planning out the rest of our days together, picking out the names of our kids, even going shopping for engagement rings just for the hell of it. Know I'd do absolutely anything in the world to have those moments with you again... Even if it was just for a little while longer. My years with you were the happiest of my life, and my heart is having so much trouble letting those memories go. Despite all that, I know deep down that you've moved on. I don't know if you've found anybody else yet - I suppose I really just don't want to know. Perhaps you'll see the grass is greener on the other side... Perhaps you'll realize it was already green to begin with. I just hope that in time you'll realize how easy we had it, and how I treated you the best that any man ever has. I hope that one day we can give it another go when life doesn't get in the way. Until then, just know that I love you, and there will always be a spot in my heart for you.