rosalyn1223

i know this might seem weak or uneffective(it did at first to me), u should go to a therapist, when my mom was younger she was anorexic to, and my grandma took her to get professional help, and she has been ok ever since...if u are doing that bad in school, do be perfectly honest i would stop going until i could get myself together again..and then go back to school...or do them both at the same time but it might be a lot to handle all at once...and make sure ur bf is being supportive and not just adding to the problem...i dont know if he is but u said u were in "an odd relationship with ur bf". well get better...take care

i think u r totally in the right..it's not ur fault what happened to him...show sympathy and empathy and be there for him but not sexually...that wont help the problem, it will only make it worse. i have never read that book but give it a try it might work. all u can do now is help him get past it, but giving in wont help...i know u wont him to know he loves u, but try other ways of showing it even though he only knows one...good luck...i hope this helped

me and my bf have been together for a yr and 5 months and he means the world to me i'd do anything for him...i love him. however i'mm not sure he feels the same way. about 10 months ago he moved to colorado and it killed me but we staed together threw it...now he is back for the summer. and well basically he has someone in colorado n i hate it...he said the mean nothing to him and never will but still he calls them and talks to them and has even looked at their picture in front of me! and now i think he may be getting ready to cheat on me again with one of m closest friends who lives here...who he also cheated on me with before when he lived here. i love him so much and dont want to let him go. he sas he loves me and were going to be together forever and i dont know how special i am to him but now that he's here he calls m friend more then he calls me. and on sunday were going on vacation together and im not sure if i even want to go now. i dont want to get hurt again.and i know my friend wouldnt betray me again..but still i dont just want to be my bf second best. like he dates me and has the relationship with me but it's kinda like im the back up...especially while he's in colorado. it's even getting so bad now that i am cutting myself again, and breaking out in rashes. i dont want to lose him we have been in this situation before when he was going to leave me for an ex(which i dont think he is planning) but still i think he wants to do something with them and i cant take it anymore i dont want to get hurt anymore... thanks to anyone who reads this and anyone who leaves a reply.

you werent wrong to try to get her to stop...you did it bcuz you care about her and theres no crime in that. and believe i know cutting is addicting the only things keeping me from doing it now is talking to u. but send her flowers, try to make things right. tell her you know how she feels and that you have been there, and you dont want her to get seriously hurt. and when u said mean things to her, it's bcuz it was the heat of the moment n it just happened, apologize for it...u and i both know you really care about her dont just give up. i remember one day when m bf was reall depressed and wanted to kill himself...and he had ever opportunity to cuz he was home all alone. i talked to him and talked him out of it...bcuz i cared;...and he reminds me that the onl reason hes here today is bcuz of me. u havent said it but with the way u say things it sounds like u really, reall love her...and when u really love someone, if their hurting themselves get them help. and im not saing shes crazy or anything like that in fact i hate it when ppl say ppl who cut are "crazy." but u love her and dont want her to do something that could cost you her life...and i think potentially yours. just try to talk 2 her, dont give up for her sake n ur's

well i dont blame u for not coming out to ur co-workers....but this guy...u really like him so don't just cut off the connection between u 2. talk to him and relax, dont get nevous.(i know, easier said then done) just take a deep breath and think of something to talk about before you talk to him. and maybe once you get to know him more..if he is gay he will come out to you....good luck and let me know how everything turns out.

WOOOOHOOO YEAAA CONGRATTULATIONS!!!! even tho i don't know u i am very happy for you. that is a very big step for anyone who takes. u should feel very proud....and good luck with everything!!

yea you maake a very good point. and i dont think gays/lesbians/bis are going to corrupt any body i think the govenment had done enough of that on their own. and yea i agree i wonder how people are going accept this when the people who are trying to get them to understand can't even understand themselves.

well to start off i'm sorry to hear that your co-workers are like that. i absolutely agree with you that it's unacceptable for them to be getting into your business like that. but dont let them get under your skin it will just make them happier. in school i always get a lot of crap bcuz m bf is BI and im straight. people i didnt even know would give me a hard time and when i fought back it only gave them more pleasure. keep ur head up and tell them to shove off. bcuz anyones sexual orientation had nothing to do with how someone is as a person. some of teh nicest ppl i know are gay and i wouldnt want them any other way.

i know how u feel and this site helped me a lot bcuz for once i felt like i wasnt alone in this. but my story i guess is kinda like your's i started cutting last year bcuz i finally met some one i really cared about and they werent cutting but they did things n we had problems and i started cutting and with the help of friends and this site i stopped for 5 months. but now me and him are having problems again and i am cutting again. and also things did really escalate when i started thinking about suicide...plzzz i know how this feels and if you start feeling like that let me know and just talk to me...it helps to just talk sometimes...plz! and as far as things go with "her" talk to her about our past...ask her why she does and tell her why you did. as pathetic as it may seem 3 of my closest friends also self injured and that used to be one of the bonds that kept us together...we helped each other threw it bcuz we had been there...2 of them quit, however 1 still does but i cant blame him i do to...just not as much. well i hoped this helped you let me know if you want to talk. i wish u the best of luck!

i know how u feel i have been there before. i would cut all the time because i just couldnt handle what was going on in my life...but what i did to help me stop is i started talking things out with my friends and controlled how many times i would cut in a given time...as i stopped cutting as much and it was only a few times i just quit. and like u i was so scared that one day i would do something that could really injury and hurt myself. also it was a pain to have to constantly keep covering up my scars so people wouldnt question where they came from. also what i did to help me stop is i threw away everything i was using to cut myself or if it was a razor, everytime i would think about cutting i would go do something else. and to help control my anger i got a punching bag. i hope this helps u and u know ur not alone...if u want to talk let me know...and trust me u can do this...hold on to hope.

me and my bf have been going out for almost 11 months that is his longest relationship n this is my first, anywayz we went out for 7 months n then he moved to colorado(i live in maryland) n i love him very very much n he loves me(as far as i know, weve had some pastr problems that messed us up sometimes) n hes almost 17 n im 15 n people say were too young n were not going to last n will never make it...but i want it to last forever n i dont know what to think anymore it's like its just us fighting to stay togetehr when the whole world wants to watch us fall....and i just want some peoples opinions as to what u think, if we will last or not...and the problems that we had are resolved now...but yea....plz help me,we love each other n i need some support that people do believe that long distance relationships do last....

ok my bf n i have been going out for 8 months...n he has cheated on me twice n once with my one of my friends n that lasted for a week n then again with his ex n then we almost broke up cuz he said we needed to take a break cuz he needed to make a decision between me n his ex....n he did eventually pick me...but now he has moved to colorado i i think he is going to cheat on me again n i dont know if i can handle that again cuz the first i just wanted to die...n wanted to kill myself......cuz i love him very much n would do anything for him n he says he feels the same way............but i dont know do actions speak louder then words????plzzz help me!!

Look into my eyes and what to do see Everything that I want to be You see all the pain I feel That seems it will never heal Will this pain ever go away The pain I feel every day The broken hearts And all the missing parts All the suicidal thinking And then I begin sinking I fall deeper and deeper into hell Where I'm locked in my cell Please I beg you just kill me This is my only plea Just end my pain Before I go totally insane Cutting closer to my veins As I'm locked in my chains Although I may not want to die I sit here and wonder why Why I want to keep living And keep giving However I have found out Even in my moment of doubt one reason that keeps going Is the care two people are showing My best friend and my boy friend So now I don't think my life will come to an abrupt end ***but i dont think it's really true anymore cuz i think my bf is cheatig on me n my best friend is lieing to me....n right now i feel very alone n very depressed....

as unfortunate as it is i dont think a day goes by anymore when i dont think about it...but something has always kept me from doing, just havent figured out what it is yet...

thx everybody who posted stuff on here.....im feeling a little better now......thank u