panther

By the way, I was asked out on a date.

Even though it is obvious I resent you for many things (otherwise I wouldn't feel the urge to tell you mean things), I don't think I really loved you. I miss someone, a partner, not you necessarily. Even though I like you a lot, I don't think it was ever real love. I am not just saying this to be mean right now, it is something that occurred to me while we were still happy with each other.

I am actually surprised at myself that it's not being as hard as I thought it would be to leave you. Everyone around me says I did the right thing. It is a universal fact, dumping you was the right thing. Still I am mad with you, i am so angry that you keep saying it was all your fault and that you can't change yourself and so on. And I really hate such crap: oh I know I acted wrong but I am like this and I can't change this. This is childish, selfish and i dare to say it's arrogance. Did you know relationships take effort? Aparently not. Oh and by the way, you are the one who should be doing psychotherapy because it seems that the fact ist, you have mommy issues. Her raising you alone as an only child did screw you up. No, sweetie, it is not normal that you are 37 and never moved in together with a woman, that you still go on vacation with your mom and stepdad without inviting me and above all it is not normal that after all the amount of time in the relationship you never told your parents of my existence. And there is more, oh yes there is: it is not normal that you go shopping with your mommy. You were lazy in the relationship and you know what, you were also lazy in bed. I had a lot better in the past. You go be happy alone and sit on your couch and go play your stupid computer and playstation games and continue being your mommy's little boy. I wish you could see this and grow up to be a man.