kindfellow

WOW!...you said it....you've cast some light on my situation and you've pretty much nailed it right on the head, not on everything but enough to give me some clarity, especially about your "shopping mall" approach to attraction to guys and the following statement ....I can sure relate on some levels there in regards to situationally/circumstantially being bisexual...my sexual attraction is primarily Hetero with an attraction towards Transsexuals as well, but my sexuality can sure make my head spin sometimes.....

on the lips...on my neck, my back, soft tender kisses mmmmm.....

nope, I'm a male and happy as one.

First off, thanks for understanding...I'm glad you can see where I'm coming from.... I've had a crush on a friend in the past but I think it may have been more of a desire to be like him than a lustful desire and yes I've been in a situation with him where I felt I was picking up signals but they weren't strong enough for me to really question them entirely and also I may have been reading into things, I don't know (shrugs shoulders), but as for homosexual activity I have had a few experiences when I was younger with a friend when I was in grade 7 or 8.... as for being intimate with a transsexual friend, well I don't have any transsexual friends to begin with but if I met one that I liked and things seemed to naturally work out (I don't really go looking for things to happen, I rather it just happen naturally) I wouldn't hesitate to get involved with one....as for a male friend that I desired and that I couldn't get enough of, well no, other than a really good friend in a non sexual way...I don't really feel that sexually drawn towards men but in some other ways I do, for one I hate the big mammoth jock porno movie types and I don't like tuff guy machoness I find it very annoying....guys are just a fantasy I suppose and if I do fantasize about guys and see a guy that I think is hot it's usually the gentle, kind, soft, pretty types (not the over the top wimpy flamer divas) just very feminized to the point they might as well be girls, a feminized male body is really attractive to me.....when it comes to guys I just seem to be attracted and relate to that type because I myself in a lot of ways am like that too, I like being, for lack of a better term, a feminized male it's who I am, I like being a fe-male (not a female) and I'm happy physically as a male....I don't know, when it comes to my sexuality I'm pretty complex and I feel all over the place, I ignore it most of the time because to be honest ya' know things could be worse but I'm neurotic and stuff like this comes up from time to time hahaha, it seems like it's almost a bit of a teeter totter thing I'm going back and forth it's confusing, it seems the more feminine in appearance a person is, for example a woman (obviously) or a feminized male body, is a real turn on for me I'm really attracted to femininity, maybe that's why I like women and transsexuals so much, women being obviously feminine and transsexuals being males that are hyper-feminized and guys that I find attractive that fall in between....ahhhh! human sexuality is such a pain in the butt sometimes.

most likely female....but it also feels nice sometimes to be in the arms of my gay guy friends when they hug me when I'm feeling down...then again I haven't had much relationship experience to really know...I hope that's of some help

Hello all I'm new to "eNotAlone" I have a few dilemma's here, I'm trying to figure out who I am sexually am I bi/gay/whatever??......bare with me I'm a bit neurotic....this is a long one I'm a 30 year old single male who has never really had much experience with girls other than kissing and to boot I'm also a "virgin", YES you heard it right...no I'm not some hideous creepy stereotype, I'm an fit active stylish guy, I'm a freelance graphic designer and an artist, I have tattoos etc. and I work in a record store as well blah blah blah anyway....as for the virgin issue, I'm okay with it I guess, but I do worry about how a woman would react if I become intimate with her, I even came out to one of my many lady friends of mine about it awhile ago and she seemed sort of weirded out by it but still okay with it, she told me to never tell a girl that, to say the least it made me feel pretty low and got me to think that my window of opportunity has passed and I'll never experience it, it's just I'm not going to give my virginity to just anyone and to be honest I just haven't found anyone I'm really attracted to, mind you I do find all sort of girls "attractive" but not in the sense of wanting to have a relationship with them....also because I'm not comfortable with myself yet (I have image issues).....and most important I can't be intimate like that with someone I don't love, it just seems today that in society it's all sex sex sex me me me, well I'm not like that even though I'm a guy, sorry but when it comes to sex I want it to be special and on a deep emotional level....am I normal or just some picky loser who's waited to long?? I guess I consider myself to be bisexual but I'm sexually attracted more to women then men, when it comes to men I find that I am very picky and I prefer soft and gentle effeminate "pretty" guys and I rarely find a guy I like so maybe I'm not so bisexual in regards to men as I thought, who knows, am I?....I also find myself very sexually attracted to male to female transsexuals, would I still be considered bisexual then? there's something so hot about a really beautiful passable transsexual, in my masturbatory fantasies the sexual rush from, pardon my expression "a chick with a dick is quite hot at times even though I've never been involved with one, however I would date a transsexual if I met the right one, transsexuals also seem to suite me for some reason because they're feminine and masculine in the same package like me, the only difference is I don't wish to dress like a woman I'm happy as a male....I find myself more comfortable in the company of women and most of my friends are women, I've even been called "one of the girls" and been told I kiss like a girl, why so many friends who are girls? because I can be myself more and be more open with issues without dealing with the strange looks or judgment I get from guys, and I've heard that some people think I'm gay because of this, well I'm not I'm just very very in touch with my feminine side, I may be genetically a male and happy as one but I don't really consider myself a typical guy and I love it and would never want to be any other way, I more or less want to be a male, but be feminine at the same time, but not be a transsexual if that makes any sense?? it may sound stupid but it's the only way I know how to explain it....thanks for you patience....sigh*