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  1. Into Her Eyes It used to be you and me Now we’re nothing anymore Don’t know how I feel But I feel less a man for sure Messed up at times I know But baby if you had just let me grow Do you remember staring into my eyes? How I’d rub the widow’s peak of your hair Or draw secret messages on your bare back Surely you must miss those times too I hear excuses are for not And depression is only just that for the weak At the time I didn’t see what I was doing Drunk off immaturity and stupidity If you could only see me now Babe I know you’d be proud Do you remember staring into my eyes? When our essense would collide Skin upon skin we’d dance our own dance Surely you must miss those times too Our last summer Forever embedded in my heart Ecstasy was what I felt every night Hidden from me your broken trust If only you could’ve fought through You’d have learned I’d always be there for you Do you remember staring into my eyes? Because I’ll never forget yours The eyes of my own personal angel Behind them lied the most beautiful being I have ever known Forever changed because of you
  2. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Delusions of the Soul Winding deep within Entwined roads of chaos Immensely complicated tumors of insecurities Frightened stares into the mirror Over analyzed journeys into the soul Delusional battles with self over who knows Above Heavenly aspirations Exhausted attempts of perfection Stirs horrific battles engulfing my being Heightened by disguised toxins Gone astray by lack accountability Resulting in the demise of so much beauty Shattered a new beginning…
  3. no not yet. But really the tingling never was a thought until this week and the last time i saw the dr was last fri. At that time i told him i only had slight tingling. Even now during the day there is not much tingling except alot of the time when i step with my left foot the bottom of it tingles. And in the morning it is normally my left hand this week that tingles the most. So part of me wants to say its jsut anxiety induced as i have a history of worrying and dwelling on things.
  4. I have been to the dr. twice and both times they checked my eyes, strength, balance, etc and were not concerned i just find the tingling odd along with the popping i have in my pinky fingers in the morning when i move them
  5. personally i wish i could comfortable ask my gf to try anal play with me recieving, but i feel she would be freaked out or thought i was gay when really thats not the case
  6. thank you for your comments I guess I am just really edgy right now.
  7. Hi I posted a few days ago about being worried about my upcoming MRI. I get the results tommoro. I was just wondering has anyone ever woken up with tingling in their hands and a feeling like their pinky fingers are double jointed. I've been getting tingling in places ranging from my feet to hands. Please respond if you've experianced anything like this.
  8. I have an MRI scheduled for tommoro to examine possible causes of the sore spot on the top of my head. Also my Dr. was concerned when I told him my foot and calve had been tingling alot lately (almost all the time). I was just wondering if anyone had the symtoms I have and been diagnosed with anything? I'm very nervous this is something serious I just don't feel right.
  9. I posted alittle while ago about a bruise like pain on the top of my head. The dr. then told me it was a sinus infection (even though i lacked a stuffy nose or normal facial sinus pains). Well this was over 2 weeks ago and the pain has not gone away. I do not get headaches but the area is still extremely sensative to touch. Also I have noticed a slight tingling in my left arm when i lay down (not sure if it is related). Is it time for me to go back to the dr? I am really having a hard time relaxing with this bruise like spot on the top of my head not going away. It freaks me out. Please tell me what you guys think.
  10. Hi yes for 2 days now i noticed that there is a spot on the top of my head that when i push slightly on causes soreness and pressure 2 inches from it. Also i have gotten moderate headaches at this same spot maybe 1-2 times a week. I was wondering if it is normal to get headaches in the same exact spot or could this be like a tumor or something. although no bump is present and i have no other symptoms. please help ease the hypochondriac i am
  11. I'm a college senior and this past weekend I had one of my good friends come visit me. When he first got here we immiddiately went out to a party and I didnt show him where he was sleeping. Around 2 my gf was drunk and asked me to put her to bed I then walked back to her room with her and put her to bed I laid down with her and fell asleep by accident. My friend tried to get ahold of me but i didnt wake up till 9 the next morn and he slept in his car. 5 days later he still has not talked to me, he won't pick up my phone calls, and he has told my friends hes pissed at me. I've called him at least once a day and left several messages saying how srry i was. Is there anything else i can do? will my friendship with him change?
  12. bulls03

    temptation

    I have been dating my girlfriend from college for close to two years now. The other night at a party (she was not there) I got drunk and flirted and then hugged and kissed on the cheek goodbye a girl I used to be attracted to in high school. Although I know I didn't cheat when she left and I was drunk I remember feeling dissappointed. When I woke up the next day I was happy the girl I saw did not stay longer and looked at how I was acting as ridiculous. I have no doubt I love my gf. But is it ok that i have these temptations sometimes, and is it normal to feel guilty about them and should I talk to my gf about them? I'd never act on these temptations at least not sober (I'm actually scared to become intoxicated again) but drunk I'm a different persons It seems is this normal too?
  13. ya the thing is I do love my gf, i love having sex with her, and i could not picture myself falling in love or loving a guy or even having sex with one but i do occasionally have these fantasies. I just wonder if this means any or if it is normal or a problem. do other straight guys have these or similar thoughts occasionally. what does it mean if anything.
  14. the truth is i would not cheat on my gf and she does know i look at porn just not the gay porn occasionally. i should add i go for months without looking at this gay porn and then sometimes i look at it maybe once a week. does that make it any different. is it something i need to share with my gf.
  15. Hi everyone, Well I'm 21 and never considered myself gay or bisexual. However, I have over the years occasionally read gay erotic stories and even looked at gay or bisexual porn. Yet, I have never checked out or been attracted to any men in my real life. I have a gf of 2 years almost and I guess I'm wondering if this is normal or a problem. I'm for the most part comfortable with myself but I do keep these things to myself since i do not think others would approve. Do I owe to my gf to stop this. I have no urge to actually act on anything so i feel ok. I love my gf. just want peoples opinions on if this is normal or not.
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