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UPDATE! well i just saw my boyfriend yesterday (like i said i see him around once a week) and i think he catched on to the concept of my obsession for him... i chose not to go naywhere because i wanted to be alone with him in his house and so we did i found myself literally staring at him and clinged on to him for the 4 hours i was there.. he kept telling me to stop it cuz he needed some room to breathe and he told me its a very awkward feeling for someone to be observing him an inch away from his face, he told me its not normal to do such things and other crap...he was like "sometimes you can do it when my attention is awayfrom something but c'mon when im watching tv youre observing me??"..the whole time i was with him my mouth muscles were locked into smiles i felt like i was a whole when i saw him yesterday.. but i felt very sad that i got rejected by him all i wanted to do was to be close to him as possible as much as i wanted to .. its so funny how the whole week i looked like crap and yesterday i looked so good even though we were not going anywhere but the image for him is what is important.. i only realize i have beauty when i see him cuz i try to look good for only him

these are feeling and emotions i dont expose to him.. i told him im obsessive its not like he realized on his own.. and soemone commented on that i dont really love him its just obsessed but its not true . i would do things to sacrifice my happines just for him to be happy even if its means im misrerable, if he is happy im happy but along this love there is an obsession as well which i have. i am very dependant on him for my happiness in my life..but im thankful that im not obsessed over a jerk i have a reason to be obssesed with this guy due to his caring heart. if he was a jerk im not sure i would be obsessed over him.. and another person posted something about getting a book that would be benficial to read in the situtation im going for.. but that book is about when ur obssessed over someone and its hard to let go.. why would iw ant to let go of him? that would be the STUPIDEST thing i would do in my life, cuz like i said this guy is the sweetest guy i know and i think that is why im obssesed over him

after browsing this site i noticed that a lot of people are posting problems about their mate's behavior but this is different this is a probelm i have with my love and it goes like this.. i have been dating this guy for about 2 years and he is absolutely wonderful, a girl cant ask for a better guy he has everything looks, caring heart, masculinity.... etc basically the whole package.. the more i got to know him the more i fell in love with him and eventually became obsessed over him.. i see him around once a week cuz he is very busy so the days i dont see him im completely depressed i feel worthless i dont even feel like looking nice when im not with him because i dont want to impress anyone, i think to myself "why should i look nice if im not going to see him" and i know what you are thinking of "you should do it for yourself" but i dont need to cuz i KNOW i can look good if i wanted to in minutes.. i just choose to match my looks with my mood...i think about him 24/7 literally! basically the feeling i feel when im not with him is like detaching twin babies head on head.. i can ONLY masterbate and get turned on to him by looking at his picture (if im not with him) nothing and no one else can turn me on even if the hottest guy was standing next to me shirtless all dieseled up. i am disgusted by every guy who is not him and even found myself to be very rude to them cuz of that. i realized that my life revolves only around him and recently something weird happened this little phase im going through i realized gotten worse when lately i cry my eyes out almost everyday as a result of how much i love him (mainly) and what a great guy im lucky to have. Now since this has gotten worse, everytime i see him i get so nervous, butterflies in my stomach, sweating., stuttering, cant stop smiling,..etc... its like he takes me away to a world of bliss. i love to stare at his beatiful face, i even found myself at a place we were eating me drooling looking at him i dont know how god made a guy who is so good looking with such a good heart usually guys who look so go od are such jerks ..i elimintaed SO MANY people out of my life that were pointless people to be friends with its like he is the only one i have in my life (he feels the same way) my bf is my best friend and im comfortable to do and say ANYTHING in front of him,.. everytime he is in a bad mood i feel what he feels... i even have a little shrine of him hidden in my closet where i save his gum (i have like 30 of them), collect pieces of his hair from my pillow.. anything that is part of him i save.. i swallow his cum because of this psychological thought that i have that his sperm will swim inside my body thereforeeee its like he is inside of me, i NEVER have sex with a condom because i need him to be inside of me raw in order for me to feel aroused (sex with him for me is all emotions, very little physical.... i think about my feelings for him when we have sex which makes me orgasm i dont care much of the physical pleasure)..im scared to even imagine what would i would do to myself if we broke up i never experienced that becasue we have such a good serious relantionship and always work things out... its so funny how today when i was with him even though i felt nervous to be around him cuz i love him so much (which i shouldnt be nervous about) i felt like a whole person and actually worth sometihng but as soon as i came out of his car its like half of my soul vanished away because we split our ways. my bf knows im obsessed over him cuz i told him but he does not know HOW obsessed i really am over him. he thinks its "cute" and laughs cuz he does not really know what goes on in my head lol.... its SO HARD to put in words how really obsessed i am over him *sigh* even after reading what i jsut wrote it still does not sound how obsessive i actually really am.. well from what you read.. what do you think ? do you think this is normal?

i decided to take a break/breakup with my bf because im completely in love with him but problem is he is not in love with me.. and i have been dealing with this problem for about 6 months and i told him that one day i will break up with him because i want to get married to him but since he does not love me hows that going to happen? its like im wasting his and my time.. he told me that in order for me to make him love him i have to be nice to him and not to get mad at him because of the smallest things and as a result be mean to him... its like he is giving me a recipe on how i can get his love.. and last night i have realized that he is never going to love me and he should love me for my good and bad not just my good side becasue think about it imagine if i do become nice to him and he gets his love for me whats going to happen if we get in a fight when he falls in lvoe with me... his love for me will disappear withing seconds of the fight? i hardly see him or talk to him because he is jsut way too busy in college i see him for a few hrs one day a week... i trust him... majority of his work he has to do for school has to be done on his laptop his comp automatically logs on to aim and i see him on there for hours and he has the idle option so anytime he away from the comp he is idle for like 10 mins or so.. so we hardly talk or see eachother so anyways i broke up with him 2 nights ago after a yr and 5 months this was over the fone and i was crying so hard and he was shocked when i broke up with him, at first he thoguht i was joking but then he realized that i was serious he insisted on giving it another month to see if it will change i declined im like to him whats going to happen you are going to wake up from bed and be like "wow i love her"..its not going to happen .. and btw i was his first gf he never had a gf and he 24 ... so we broke up and he seemed sad ( i think). the reason why i broke up with him is beacuse this my last chance to know if he loves me... if he wont talk to me or see me he wil realize what he lost and realize he does love me.. its like theat phrase "if you love someone let them free if they come back to you then its meant to be" he never experienced love before so he claims he dunno how it feels to love a girl.. i told him when he realized if he loves me to call me and we will get back together.. he like 'how about can i call you when i miss you" im like "no please dont call" i made him promise me not to call me or communicate with me in any way until that one day that he realizes he loves me after we got off the phone he text messages me saying "thank you for telling me how you feel and what we should do i dont know if it was right or wrong but maybe its for the better, think postive, u didnt do anything wrong except screw me over a few times that scarred our relantionship, but whatever u dont do it anymore so dont blame urself.. i actually give you alot of respect for doing this it may actually change me towards u and love you in say about a week or so" then i responded to his text saying that i love him and that i hope he will come back to me soon he text me back saying "alright good night sweet dreams stop crying u got to wake up early tomorrow". honestly do you think this guy will come back to me? i dont know if im doing the right thing it may backfire on me because im waiting for him to call me to tell me that he loves me.. this is by far the longest we havent spoken... 2 days

i decided to take a break/breakup with my bf because im in completely in love with him but problem is he is not in love with me.. and i have been dealing with this problem for about 6 months and i told him that one day i will break up with him because. i want to get married to him but since he does not love me hows that going to happen? its like im wasting his and my time.. he told me that in order for me to make him love him i have to be nice to him and not have my mood swings... its like he is giving me a recipe on how i can get his love.. and last night i have realized that he is never going to love me and he should love me for my good and bad not jsut my good side becasue think about it imagine if i do become nice to him and he gets his love for me whats going to happen if we get in a figh and his love for me will disappear? so anwyays i broke up with him last night after a yr and 5 months this was over the fone and i was crying so hard and he was shocked when i broke up with him, at first he thoguht i was joking but then he realized that i was serious he insisted on giving it another month to see if it will change i declined im like to him whats going to happen you are going to wake up from bed and be like "wow i love her"..its not going to happen .. and btw i was his first gf he never had a gf and he 24 ... so we broke up and he seemed sad ( i think). the reason why i broke up with him is beacuse this my last chance to know if he lvoes me... if he wont talk to me or see me he wil realize what he lost and realize he does love me.. its like theat phrase "if you love someone let them go if they come back to you then its meant to be" he never experienced love before so he claims he dunno how it feels to love a girl.. i told him when he realized if he loves me to call me and we will get back together.. he like 'how about can i call you when i miss you" im like "no please dont call" i made him promise me not to call me or communicate with me in any way until that one day that he realizes he loves me after we got off the phone he text messages me saying "thank you for telling me how you feel and what we should do i dont know if it was right or wrong but maybe its for the better, think postive, u didnt do anything wrong except screw me over a few times that scarred our relantionship, but whatever u dont do it anymore so dont blame urself.. i actually give you alot of respect for doing this it may actually change me towards u and love you in say about a week or so" then i resonded to his text saying that i love him and that i hope he will come back to me soon he text me back saying "good night go to bed u have to wake up early sweet dreams". honestly do you think this guy will come back to me? i dont know if im doing the right thing

i recently started using a powerful vibrator that really gets me to have orgasms (first time i actually used a vibrator). But, sometimes i pee at the same time i orgasm when i use it. I NEVER pee'd before when i got an orgasm by a guy but currently sometimes using this vibrator i do pee. could it be the vibrator itself and its powerful vibrations in/on my clitoris? (note: i use the vibrator only in/on my clitoris and not in the hole i have sex in). i didnt get an orgasm from my b/f since i have used the vibrator so i can't really tell if the same thing is going to happen when my b/f gives me an orgasm (HOPEFULLY NOT! LOL). is this normal to pee during getting an orgasm from a vibrator?

no no no, its not his friend it is my friend. it is a guy a met and liked right away wen i was stil with my ex well basically the guy i dumped for my ex. but other than the fact he hits me he really is a nice guy

i have been in a relantionship for 4 1/2 years and had a bf who beat me up and i had a guy friend who i met while my bf and me were still going out so he knew what was going on.. that he beat me up and he said to me "any guy who hits a girl is a punk" and i asked him if hew would ever do it he said "never" well i broke up recently with my bf to go out with this guy becasue i liked him alot and wanted to be with him. im in a realntionship with him for 4 1/2 months and he beats me up! yesterday he literally beat the crap out of me because i didnt let him eat cuz i wanted something that he ruefused to give. and the funny thing is, is when we made up yest i asked him "why do u hit me like my ex bf hit me" and he said "cuz i realized ur not a girl ur a stupid *beep* who deserves it" funny thing is, is that my ex bf said the SAME THING. so we have 2 guys here who would never hit girls and are really against it but only ended up hitting me and saying the same response on why they hit me. that is sooo strange

i do show him!!! but it only makes me feel better sexualy not increase my chanes of getting an orgasmn. damnit i never had this prob with my ex i had an orgasm by him fingerig me within minutes

no i dont know how to pleasure myself jsut rub myself my bf is supposed to pleasure me instead of my doing it to myself all the time.. but thats not my question..... and yes he does play with my vagina and clitoris he plays with it the most. when he fingers me it does not feel good but when he eats me out it feeels pleasent but i just cant get an orgasm most of the time

my bf is everything that girl could want, he has nice looks, very romantic.... BUT, he cant give me an orgasm but he can make me horny though. with my ex bf i used to love getting fingered by him he did it the best and i ALWAYS got an orgasm but with this bf he cant really finger to a point where i could get an orgasm. i never had an orgasm thru sex my whole life only getting fingrered by my ex bf i had an orgasm and like 1-2 times i got an orgasm while my current by eating me out. what should i for him to get me an orgasm? p.s i didnt encounter alot of guys out there this is my 2nd bf so its the second person i had sexual relations with

yes those are the lyrics. wonderful use of words!

oh my gosh i just listened to a song that is exactly how someone should feel after a break up with their lover who they are deeply in love with such as I at this point of time with my ex. The lyrics are so deep and the video has so much pain and tension going on in it. Backstreet Boys - Incomplete. You can see their video on link removed (if you have winamp) go to the videos section and type in backstreet boys on the top right hand corner. I know that backstreet boys was a corny group but now they have a whole new new flavour, its their latest song. i definelty suggest you check it out and listen to the lyrics carefully and watch how much pain and tension is going on in the video. IT'S A VERY DEEP SAD SONG ABOUT LOVE

now i just talked to him about our relantionship and im like to him "should i give up on you and move on" he like "do whatever you feel is right" and im like "well i need to know if i have a chance to get back with you" he said "yes there is a chance just dont piss me off"

i know 10000000% he is not using me for sex and another thing that i know is im the only girl he is sexual with he lost his virginity to me and i lost it to him. so both of us only had sex with only eachother. so we rely on only on eacother for sex wen we need it but aside form the sex we are not using eachother becasue there have been platny of times when he wanted it and i said no and he didnt get mad and was still nice to me. i nkow this guy more than i know myself so im very certain about this