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  1. this is probably a really bad example (actually, i know it is, but its all that i can offer) but i remember an episode of "'til death do us part" with carmen electra and her fiance... whatever his name is. in it he told the camera that "they dont makeout anymore because he thinks its kind of weird to makeout with your wife." he then went on to say that instead they peck-kiss practically every other second. maybe your boyfriend/fiance feels the same way?
  2. lol, most of the time that's the case. friends first is the story of my life. then there are those that i didn't first become too close with, but those turned out the same as well. *sigh*
  3. i don't really know how to put this but... anyway recently i was with a guy who made me feel completely taken advantage of, like i was used as a trophee girl who came in handy for the guys "needs" if you get what i'm saying. i never had a real relationship where i felt our feelings were mutual and i wasnt just being used as a piece of a**. mostly every guy ive hooked up with has told me that they weren't looking for a relationship at the time. yet recently i've been talking to this new guy. i only met him a short while ago, so i'm not looking to rush into anything, but we talked on the phone every night since we've met (he called me every time.) we have good conversations, although i try to keep them light and friendly without getting into anything too serious. recently he brought up the topic of ex bf/gf's and he told me that he was sick of being the "player" type and has been wanting a relationship. then he went on to talk about how he used to hook up with a different girl every weekend. but supposedly now he wants a real relationship and he hopes that i won't judge him on his past. he tells me he likes me and so on, but in the back of my head all i'm thinking is, yeah right it's too good to be true. all my past experiences have forced me to believe that i am just not the type of girl that guys want to have a relationship with. i seem to be the girl that guys go to when they want play, and then i get left once they find someone else. it confuses me because a lot of guys tell me that i'm hot/funny/nice etc, yet i'm the only one out of all my friends who doesn't have a boyfriend. in fact i haven't even been asked to be someones girlfriend in almost a year. now i'm not asking these guys for anything, or coming on to strong with relationship talk. most of the time i tell them i want to just see where it goes. and i'm especially not the type to give out easily, in fact i am very selective about who i choose to do things with. but more times than not it ends up falling apart and i'm left back where i started. so you can imagine whats become of my self-esteem. i just dont know what to do anymore. i feel like any guy who's interested in a relationship with me either has a hidden agenda or is just desperate. i always feel like i'm not good enough. if a guy gives up a night with his friends to be with me, i feel guilty all night and apologize. if a guy is on the phone with me, then i try to get off as quick as possible thinking they rather be doing something else. sometimes i'm embarrassed for the guys sake when his friends see me with him, thinking that he really wishes they hadn't. i want to try to make it work with this guy, but i can't help but think it's too good to be true. i feel like that by thinking this way, than it is pretty much inevitable that it will turn out like all the others. i do all the right things when i'm with these guys.. i act confident, i dont become clingy, i give them space but also hint that i have feeliings for them... but nothing ever comes of it. I really need help before i lose my mind!! lol
  4. yeah it is always better to tell the truth to your parents. if they see you're being honest with them, even if its not about something they truly want to hear, then they'll know to trust you better and will give you more priveledges. if you lie and get caught then it just makes it seem as if you were trying to hide something, even if you just thought they'd say no and that's why you lied. and sometimes your parents might surprise you and really not care about something you thought they would, and then you get to go out and have fun without all that guilt
  5. whatever you do, don't yell "god mom you're so overprotective" and slam your door. that will just give her a reason to view you as an immature child instead of someone who's old enough to date. try to explain your feelings to her maturely. tell her that, after working so hard all week, you feel as if you deserve at least one night out. then let her know where you're going to go, when youre going to be there, and what time you'll be home. make the coming-home time a bit early so that she will be less nervous about letting you go. good luck!
  6. yep, agreed. i use dove and it seems to always work for me, plus it smells like the dove soap
  7. i don't really consider it sex, but i know a few people who do. it's interesting to see what other people think about this.
  8. Excuse me for not making any sense, I just needed to write this out. A blank page that needs to be filled in order to calm a cluttered mind. These crazy fantasies are able to scream, but just as long as they're in my head. They don't like to come out on paper, they're afraid. Is a character the result of his or her environment? Are those who are forced to swallow their voice doomed in a way nobody can fathom? They don't know I'm an artist with sweet intentions. They don't know the hidden security they have mercilessly crushed beneath their careless fists. Maybe there's a shell that, once cracked, reveals a brilliant pearl. Do they ever wonder? They're haunted by self-absorbtion, wasting time and hearts for fleeting satisfaction. Maybe this is all just an illusion. Maybe I'm drunk on these made up reels. I thrive on the pretend scrips that are acted out in my head. I create feelings in dreams that linger on until I can no longer breathe. There's nowhere to go, I'm immune to cowardice. My skin is a filter only penetrated by sharp words. Praise bounces away like bullets on steel. I look in the mirror and see every flaw. I look at my past as it melts and leaves nothing but harsh reality. My hands are cold because they've never felt the warmth of a heart. I try so hard but I'm suffocated under millions of others' happy endings. They live in their new bliss and forget me until drama unfolds and calls for backup. I'm their navy seal. What good can I do unless under a threat? I matter not, until there's nothing else. I matter not, unless there's no one else. I matter not. I'm my own voice, but I am not my own soldier. I don't need a soldier. I need myself. Can anyone relate?
  9. obviously i've heard of "play" meaning to "cheat".... but since they are not together i took it that he meant something else. who knows, maybe he was just kidding.
  10. personally, i could never go out with a guy who's been with four of my other friends. it seems like she just likes the attention she gets from these guys, not that she's necessarily a sl*t. if you have fun with her, and none of your friends would feel upset if you went out with her, than take her out. but don't get too serious too soon, or you may end up getting hurt.
  11. lol now i know this isn't the point of the post, but i agree with that completely.
  12. i never heard of this either. maybe they meant that you flirt with him or that you act like you like him...?
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