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19 days and running! Proud of myself for doing it but I feel especially bad today. Weekends are the worse, and mornings too, as I still have nightmares with him nonstop. I think what triggered the whole thing was a wedding party yesterday. I just felt that what this couple has I though I would have, and now this seems further than ever. This morning I was actually questioning whether this guy EVER loved me. I cannot see how someone can give the cold shoulder to the person you loved for more than a decade. He told me he still loved me in the end of december. It's april...what kind of love is that? Maybe I just convinced myself he was a better person than he really is...? Does anyone feel that way too?

Sorry you are not feeling fine, Amandacast57. I have my bad moments too. Mine also asked me to marry him, I was engaged for 4 years BUT....what I keep telling myself is: if this guy doesn't realize how great I am and we were, he is just not smart enough for me. I am doing a lot of sports lately, and close friends say I have never looked better. I go to a lot of social events and try to meet people and when things get really hard I write a letter to him saying how I am feeling, but DO NOT SEND IT. These things are helping me at the moment, maybe it helps you?? I hope so

I accept the challenge. Was together with the guy half of my life. For full story see my thread "Boyfriend of whole life ignoring me ". I hope it also counts if he is ignoring me, not the opposite. The last time I contacted him was per sms, 2nd of april asking if he is ok and that I haven't heard from him since my return from holidays and that I was worried. No answer...I'm quiet since then. We broke up 8 months ago but had a getting back phase 4 months ago, when he suddenly changed his mind and started dating another girl saying I hurt his pride because I was the one who broke up. I am insanely hurt but on the way of getting better. I reallly want him back as I love him more than I can ever express and cannot imagine marrying someone else or spending the rest of my days with someone else.