ultimateguy8

You finally sent me a facebook message and responded to my birthday wishes even if it was 11 days later. I just saw this today, even though you sent me the message 10 days ago. Now you know I'm barely keeping up with facebook and not checking up on your life as much, if at all. I'm not going to respond to you but you told me that contacting you through facebook would be better instead of via phone. I wonder why that is. Maybe it's so you can ignore a simple message for a month and use the excuse that "you didn't see it". Yeah, go **** yourself. Anyways, I have most of my self confidence back after you dumped me 2.5 months ago. Last night, I spotted a girl who is easily a 9.5+/10 eyeing me from accross the bar. After we caught eachother glancing a few times at eachother she came all the way up to me, grabbed my arm and started grinding on me. That felt pretty dang good and she seems really nice and somewhat interested as well. I got her number and am texting her right now. Even though I was in love with you, I have to admit she is better looking than you and hey, she's probably nicer too.

I feel pretty dang good right now. Haven't been on facebook in over a week. It's crazy how much staying off technology helps you feel better. I still think about her everyday but I'm able to fill my thoughts with other things/people more easily now. Haven't heard her voice since we broke up on October 19th. Haven't tried contacting her since November 20th besides the phone call on her birthday. I left a voicemail and she didn't respond to the call. I didn't expect her to so I wasn't disappointed. I'm not planning on contacting her for the rest of my life unless she initiates....leego

Chama, my main man, I ended up calling her around 8:30 pm tonight. I don't regret it at all. Even though she didn't pick up, I found out I was no longer blocked and was able to leave a voicemail. I kept it short and sweet and mentioned nothing about the relationship. I simply wished her a happy birthday and told her that I hope she has a good day, hope everything is going well, and that she does well on her finals. Maybe it will set her back just like any contact from her makes my insides turn. But I'm glad I ended up doing it. I don't care how she views me since this was my last initiated contact with her. If she wants to talk, she knows how to find me

Tomorrow is your 22nd birthday. I remember a year ago today we went out to celebrate your birthday with all of your friends and it was a great night. I still remember it fondly. I'm still not 100% sure what I'm going to do about your birthday tomorrow. A part of me wants to call you and another part thinks it's best to not contact you at all, since you haven't contacted me since the break up. Plus you didn't even acknowledge my birthday and we've only been broken up for 1.5 months. None of your roommates or friends (besides one) did either which hurt. I'm sure most of my roommates and friends will still wish you one. They won't stoop to the level yours did, I'm sure of it. I still love you and throughout our year long relationship and the time we've been broken up, there hasn't been a day where you haven't crossed my mind. That should tell you something.

It's been 47 days since the break up. I went 33 days no contact then tried to call her but realized my number was blocked. I then sent her a simple facebook message which she responded to. She hasn't even looked at the response I sent her even though it's really nothing. I haven't talked to her since and since the break up she has made no effort to contact me. She did unblock me on skype yesterday which strikes me as odd. Everyday it gets a little easier but some days are harder than others for no particular reason. There hasn't been a day I haven't thought about her.

This morning I woke up thinking about you. I think about you everyday but it was more intense than it has been for sometime now. Your birthday is in less than a week so I'll be thinking of you that day. I'm glad your friend told my friend that you were having a hard time. I'm not sure how true it is but regardless, it makes me feel better. You'll be done with school for the semester in 2 weeks so I wonder if you'll contact me now that you won't have all the stresses in your life or if you'll keep the no contact that you've already established. I still love you and wish you the best. I hope everyday to hear from you although it doesn't seem like you want to talk to me.

I don't have that strong of an urge anymore to contact you after finding out you blocked me. I still don't really understand why you did and I'm past the point of wondering why. I can take a hint that you don't want to talk to me. I'm grateful that I didn't wait until your birthday to try and contact you and realize then that I was blocked. That would have hurt a lot more. You don't even deserve a happy birthday from me anymore. I'm trying my best to pick up the pieces without you in my life and doing pretty darn good for myself. The first month was tough and every girl I saw somehow reminded me of you. But now, when I go out I'm talking to more girls, getting numbers, and slowly gaining my confidence back. I truly hope you're happy being single. I think you'll realize soon enough that not every guy will treat you as good as I treated you. I always treated you with respect and was always willing to do things on your schedule. I changed my attitude and was happy for any amount of time we could talk or see each other because I knew you were really busy and stressing over school. Most guys you meet will not have the same morals as me and their only motivation for talking to you will be to try and get into your pants. I know you're not this kind of girl and I honestly hope you always hold onto your self respect and never lose it. Although I always called you beautiful and complimented your looks, to me, you were way more than just another pretty face. I admired your work ethic, your morals, and your personality among many other things. I put you on this huge pedestal and never in a million years expected things to reach the point they are currently. We always joked that I would be the one to break up with you. I guess the tables have turned.

Day 26 since the break up and day 26 of no contact. I did check her facebook a few times in there (although not in two and a half weeks or so) and I'll admit, it did set me back a little. I won't do that again until I'm ready and fully healed. I had my friend change my password two and a half weeks back so I haven't even been on facebook at all during that time period. I'm trying to put myself back on the market. Been going out with my friends every week or so and just spent a week in London to get my mind off everything. A girl I met on spring break down in Florida last year texted me last night that she was around the area and wanted to see if I wanted to meet up. So I met up with her today, had lunch, and everything seemed really good between us. She has a boyfriend so I'm not going to pursue at all but there's definitely a connection between us. I remember when I met her back in March she made me uncertain about my relationship with my girlfriend because she just seemed so much cooler and nicer to me than my own girlfriend. Nothing came about it though since I just saw her for those few days but she asked me for my number and we talked a good amount when we both went back to our separate schools after spring break and then she got a boyfriend and I fell back in love with my girlfriend. I need a girl like that to help me take my ex off a pedestal.

Day 13 since break up, day 13 of NC. I'm sleeping a lot better but still wake up in the morning thinking about her and how I wish things were different and back to what it used to be like. I haven't been on Facebook since Sunday and I feel so much better since then. That was a low point for me because not only did she not wish me a happy birthday, none of her friends did (besides one) and she had new pictures up from the weekend that made me sad. I just can't keep giving into the temptation of keeping tabs on her life- it really brings you back to square one.

Day 3. Woke up and felt a little less sad than I did the previous two days. Spent most of my day trying to figure out why she lost feelings for me and trying to rationalize that it was her stress issues that made her not have feelings for me. Talked it over with a few members of my family. Talking to other people makes it seem better, especially when they're pulling for me. Felt hurt when my friend suggested she could hook up with other guys since she was no longer dating me. Have been tempted to contact her but have had a family member change the password on my Facebook for the time being. I'm eating better than I did. I hope she misses me and will not be too stubborn to tell me.