llw11

Ok, so now's my turn to post here, lol! so I can't stop looking at my phone. I hate how someone can have that much power over me. One text was all it took to brighten my day. I miss that...and i really miss what we had...the texting, the intimacy..was the best ever. But I need to move on. We weren't in a true classical relationship but to me it still matters. What we had might not have been real and it wasn't mutual, but the emotions were real; I wanted so much more, but you weren't prepared to give me that...so..I hurt. I feel like i'm getting better...slowly...I'm trying to avoid resisting what I'm feeling. I feel however I feel and it will be over soon; I will rise again, but for now, I miss you. I don't blame you for any of this. I knew what I was getting into. I took a chance because I believed in something bigger; something more and was more than willing to take the risk. I'd do it over again too. The pain now is worth the risk so I'm at peace with that at least. I....WILL....RISE!!!