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clarkyyeah

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  • Birthday 11/18/1989

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  1. Day 13 or 14 im not sure i stopped coming on here for a little while, i did break the no contact rule yesterday by looking at his facebook profile, but i havent contacted him at all. I have been great the past few days, well since i went complete no contact but today im feeling a little emotional, and keep asking myself why? Thats all i really wanna know, why? Why did he do that to me and how did he do it without caring? All i want is to know why and for him to say sorry, then i could know he at least cared, he's never coming back and im never getting a sorry for what he did, like he said when he left for someone else ' Ive got nothing to be sorry for, what im only making myself happy for once'. Im sorry we have our ups and downs after the break ups, this must be a down day
  2. I was reading something online this morning, im not sure how i came accross it, i think it was how to know if a guy is using you, i really wish i had read that article many months ago and maybe then i would have known what to expect. Eventhou youve hurt me and that was the one thing i never expected you to do, i still remember what it felt like to kiss you and even if it didnt mean as much to you as it ment to me, i dont care because some of those days i spent with you were the happiest ive ever been, its slow progress but im getting over you, ive let the anger go, i no longer cry, i still miss you but ive accepted that what we had just wasnt what i thought it was, no matter what we were i was happy when i was with you and i know you were happy too, some things just arnt ment to be in the end, missing your laugh.
  3. Day 3,4 and 5, i havent been on here the past three days but i also havent contacted him which im very happy about. I find myself thinking about him less, theres times i still get really angry at how things have played out, then theres times ill sit there and just think about him, i find as the days go on and the longer i go without looking at his pictures i forget his face, i really loved him so much, i really did, i guess life doesnt always go the way you want it too, im moving on and getting myself out there more and its helping alot
  4. Day 2, Today im trying to work out what happened between us, how can someone who once said they loved you go from that to cutting someone out of your life and moving onto someone else the same day. I know some people move at different speeds when they break up with someone, but i thought that because i was his longest relationship that he would at least care and need to get over it, instead he jumped into another relationship the same day and never spoke to me again, in my opinion thats a pretty crappy thing to do, but what can i do? I still havent looked at anything to do with him and i feel like im doing well, i find that the less i look at him the less it hurts but i still still think about him often, but most of those thoughts end with the questions how and why? I know why, why is because hes scared of been alone and i guess how is because you never really know a person no matter how long your with them.
  5. Day 1, Ive had the urge so many times to just look at his facebook but when i get that urge i get off the computer because i know im not going to like what i see. If its a rebound then he can fall flat on his face but if its the real deal and he used me then i guess ill have to accept that and understand that some people are just cruel. I was no contact since the break up but i was still looking at his facebook and stuff which isnt really full no contact so ive decided to take this challenege hoping itll get him out of my mind. Anyway two days ago when i broke no contact i didnt do it to get him back, i only wanted some closure, i knew he left me for someone else but he lied to my face and promised me it wasnt and that girl was nothing to him, couldnt even give me even a little respect when leaving for someone else? He has ignored me since the day he dumped me and he didnt reply to my messages either, i guess a year together can mean nothing to some. Makes me sick and angry, oh well the first day down. I think they say the first few days are always the hardest
  6. Okay! I'm here to take on this full no contact challenege. He's been blocked and everything else so lets start shall we. Day 0, feeling pretty worthless after everything but i cant allow someone to make me feel that way, its hard to believe people can change like they do, one minute your there everything and the next minute your not even worthy of them saying hello to, oh well life goes on doesnt it, put this down as a lesson learned the hard way
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