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I miss you today, and the only reason i do, is because i know in time it will not matter, all the stuff we had will mean little to nothing. but for now i want it to hold its relevance in my life. i wish i could have done better by you. hope all is well in your world j

2 steps forward and 3 steps back... i thought i was making progress. but i miss you so much today. i miss calling you at work to hear your voice, i miss sitting in bed eating leftovers and watching * * * * movies. i miss the smell of your hair on my pillow in the mornings. i miss your smile and the way you laughed at the stupidest things. i miss the way you asked me the meaning of words you did not understand. it hurts that you are so close but yet so far. i wish i could kiss you on the bridge of your nose, and arrange your hair, and wish you a good day ahead. but i cant. time will replace everything, all these memories wont hurt so much, but my god time will never replace you. i imagine you growing old with such grace, turning into a beautful mother and a wonderful wife, and it saddens me to think it wont be with me. to my beautiful little J, i wish you all the happiness and joy for as long as you live.

To my idiot (ex idiot) Even though i never said those words, i felt them everyday when i looked at my refelection in your eyes, when i smelt your presence on my pillow long after you had left, when i stopped in the middle of the street and smiled, when i was trekking the himalayas, when i was stuck in the slums, when everything in my life seemed wrong i closed my eyes and saw you, and i knew it was alright. i am sorry for any hurt, for any pain i caused you. i wish you nothing but hapiness and love in your life, god knows you deserve every bit of it. i live with my regrets, and each day they build, what if? but it helps to know that you were right in your decision. it helps to know that i was attracted to and once had a strong, smart, indipendant and beautiful woman, not just a girl. but a lady. i will miss you for as long as i will miss you, and i will love you for as long as i will love you. I commend your strength, and your will. heres to you my beautiful ex. to a life full of love and infinite happiness!