I just don't get it still, even though it's been two months. You've broken NC three times, asked me for advice because I'm your most trusted source, said you miss me. There was no real reason for the BU, other than you thinking I'm not definitely the one but you told me you still love me and I know you've found it really hard too. I just wish you could know that I realise where I needed to change and improve, how to make it exciting again. I miss you so much - I am doing my best to move on but I want to call you and tell you about funny things that have happened, ask your advice, curl up and watch a film, go out dancing with you, take you to that restaurant, be the one to help, guide and love you with all my heart. I wish I could see the light, but I don't want any of that with anyone else right now. I don't need you - I can function and fill my time with fun things without you - but I WANT you. I was happier with you than I am without you.