Danny77

The same thing happened to me when my fiancees mother died suddenly. She flew back home and within 10 days we were broken up for reasons I will never understand or know. I can offer no explanation to you for why these things happen. Someone said to me once, "the death of a parent can not destroy a relationship, but it certainly can give it an overdue burial" it's so hard to accept seeing as there was no fault in the relationship to blame. You just have to move on and maybe you'll get your answer one day. Maybe you won't. I believe my wonderful ex fiancée was feeling like everything in her life was shadowed by this tragic event and cut all her attachments. She still managed to go out and have fun with her friends which was also confusing but grief is a strange thing. Sorry for your pain.

I love this.

Sarah, What's up? I picture you riding a bike with your friends laughing and having fun. I know you're not doing this. I just like to torture myself sometimes. Why? oowf, I don't know? Anyway, yes I miss you. So much. But I know that you are not the person I thought you were and it kills me to think that I was SO wrong. I'm never wrong! But I was this time hey. When I come home I will see you at one point. I don't know when or where but in the same town we are bound to bump in to each other. When I do see you, you'd better be ready for some world class acting, I mean some marlen brando s**t. I'm gonna be so fly you're gonna go week at the knees just having seen me for a few seconds! You know me, you know that out of the two of us, I have the social skills of legend! You're gonna miss me so much more than you already do. We are NEVER gonna be together again but I want to ease this bitter feeling I have inside me for you. So when I see you again, watch out. Coz I'm comin home in 4-5 months and you're not gonna know what's hit you. Yes this is childish. But I will see you again and have only two options when I do. Cry like a b**ch - Be super cool. I'll take the latter. You can have the former this time. I done my cryin. For 3 effing months Sarah. Now it's your turn. I wanna be happy now. I never thought we'd end up like this. You promised "forever" I can't stand to think of you anymore. The thoughts of you in my head are probably so far from the reality of you it's insane! You were boring when I met you and then you livend up and became amazing as I gave you so much love you felt on top of the world! Now it's all gone, you'll go back to who you were. How I let you hurt me so bad I will never know. I hope you learn one day. I just hope you learn.

You don't need him to be happy. You were happy before and you'll be happy again.

Sare, Can you PLEASE just F***ING show me that you miss me too! YOU TOOK EVERTHING! EVERYTHING! I've never been so fooled!

Hey Sare, I wonder if you're thinking about me? I mean you've gotta be! You thought about nothing but me for our whole relationship so you can't just stop now? Even before we got together you were all about me! I think you think I'm moving on and with someone else so you're scared to contact. I think that about you too. But I can never contact you while I feel so strongly for you. I would kill me. I wonder if you feel the same? I hope I never see you again. I hope you have the happiest life babe! You were awsome! So was I. Just not right for each other. I miss spooning with you. haha I bet you miss that too for sure! Anyway. Take care Sare.

Hey sare. Don't know if you miss me or not but I just wanted to say I miss you so much. The bed's empty and the house isnt as bright without you here. I miss making you hot chocolates while you were studying in bed and I miss checking in on you every 15 mins and you being excited to see me every time I did. You would always put your books down and open your arms for a hug. I'll never be your friend as I can not bare to see you like this with another person. One day if i get back to Canada then I will see you again. I'll just look the other way and make it easy for us both. But I know you, you'll wanna talk coz you're so nice and kind all the time. Hopefully I'll be stronger then and I'll keep it short and sweet. You know when I'm on form that I'm unstoppable in social situations so maybe I'll just leave it up to future me. He'll deal with it. Anyhooooo. Hate the way you just left in such a disrespectful way. I hope all the travelling with your moms inhertience is fun. That was our family you're spending there. Seems wrong to me for you to have done that in such a sensative time but you always were about you. I wish you happieness but hope you'll learn one day that you did wrong to someone you loved and who loved you. p.s. I know that you still wear the ring. On the other hand tho. It took alot of courage for me to have that made and the day I proposed I sat in the house and listened to my fav album thinking about if I was doing the right thing. Here's something you didn't know. Due to the way I percieved you and your avoident behavour....... not gonna lie hun, I had my doubts. I will never ignore my gut feelings again. Sleep tight. I miss you (her)

The first night I spent at her house she played this song and after we made love she went to make some tea. I simply laid there and this song was playing in the front room, It was so relaxing and I remember thinking... "Im gonna fall in love with this girl and it's gonna be amazing" I can't even listen to a second of this song anymore without bawling like a child. If it's on and I'm out somewhere I just have to leave. It takes me back to that day and I can even smell her perfume and the wax of the candles burning in her room.

Bon Iver - Wild Wolves act 1-2

Oh god. What a beatuiful letter. Keep this my friend. For you will look back on it one day and, although happy at this time, will remember the power of loss and the wonderful thing it really is to have loved and lost. When the movie is over, we don't sit there in darkness and wait for more. We get up, gather our things, and leave the theatre. That beach has probably seen many wonderful things. Many people in love, running like children. But the beach moves on too. Washing away the footprints with the waves. I hope you can too.

I like very much. Why would you want them? cant even commit. Won't even try.

I miss you again today. You did a wrong thing hun. You`ll look back one day and wish you did it different. Im sending your stuff to the charity shop today. I know you dont need it. Ill think about you on the way to the shops. And home.x

Burn the letters. Thats what you wanted to do right. Don`t let this change you.

Every day the same battle. But every day Im winning the fight in me.

For the past year I've thought of nobody else but you. Now you've gone. I bet you'll never find a guy that can do that. The reasons you left will always be a mystery to me, maybe to you too? I know that you'll love again, someone else, some other chap! But I also know something you dont know. He will never be me, and he will never see you as I do. Those empty eyes will wander through this world looking, always looking. I miss those empty eyes. Looking at me, But........ enough! Time to go to work! Chat with people, laugh, get on with life. If I ever see those empty eyes again, I will look straight through them Nothing more than a bum deal in a game of poker. Get up! leave the ***** table and go play another game. Now, where'd I put my socks?