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NC Day 1-I can't fault you for still hoping to have a family one day. I just wish you would have figured this out before we were both in so deep. This sucks. Especially because we were so compatible on so many levels. For 7 months you were my constant, my rock, my best friend, my smile and now you are gone. You don't know what you want. You need time. But time won't change the fact that you have a desire to have children and I can't have anymore. I'm feeling so lost right now. You asked if you could still text me good morning and have a good day. I said no because that would make it harder on both of us. You can't really figure things out if we still communicate daily. I said NC. Oh how I would love that good morning text from you right now but NC is whats best. So for now I will just talk to you here instead. Good Morning my love. I miss you so much already. And I wish today did not bring so much sadness for us both. I hope you are OK and that you find the answers you are seeking even if they don't include me. I want you to be happy. You deserve it. We both do. I just wish we could of made it work and been happy together.Damn this is SO hard!

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I can see where it could give you that impression if doing this was the only thing that made her feel sexy. One of the things I find particularly discouraging about dating is the number of men that expect you to send them intimate photos right when you start talking to them etc. It's actually a huge turn off. But to want to share them with a man who respects you that you are in a loving and commited relationship is, well that's different IMO. I couldn't agree with you more. I have friends that have had or who want to have plastic surgery and I just don't get it. I think one of the sexiest things about a woman is the ability to accept her imperfections as part of what makes her beautiful.

Love the photo summer!! I will have to share one with you when I get mine! It was fun because it made me feel sexy. Wouldn't you like to have a woman you were with give you sexy pictures of herself?

I got some done a couple weeks ago and I go see them on Sat. I can not wait! I think every woman should do these for herself and well if you have a man in your life they will benefit them too. I play roller derby so one of my outfits was a derby outfit and my skates. It was so much fun. I think I will do it again once a year.

2 1/2 months since BU, Day 23 of NC and finally healing

5 days. The longest I have ever gone without talking to you since we met.

I don't know how to do this. I don't know how to give up hope when we mutually agreed that we both need to work on ourselves before we are ready for a relationship. It was so much easier to move on from my x-husband who cheated and left me for another woman after 11 years and a son together. Why is this so much harder after only 9 months? I know I need to let go for my own sanity but I can't seem to figure out how to do that, we can't seem to go more then 4 days without talking. I wish we would have met after we healed from our last relationships. This is so ****ing hard! My heart hurts! The uncertainty of the future scares me. I don't want to still have hope for us if you don't. I am focusing on myself most of the time and working on the things I know I need to work on for myself but I can't help but wonder if you have hope left in your heart for "us" someday in the future. How do I let you go when I don't feel we have finished writing our story yet? How do I do that? Please just tell me how..... Can I let go just for now? Maybe I can do that but I don't think I can let go forever.

1 day NC 33 days LC

UGH I just miss you SO much! I wish this aching in my heart would stop already.....it hurts so bad. What are we doing J? Why does it have to be like this?

UGH....I was doing good then you have to text me that you miss me. So you miss me? Of course you miss me but keep it to yourself and let me move on. You got back with your exgirlfreind....you made that choice and you deserve to miss me. I am trying to heal and hearing that just made thoughts of you creep into my head.... * * * * you for telling me that!

Day 3 of NC. I want to hear your voice so bad right now. I hate this, God I hate this. It hurts so bad today....I miss you so much. UGH!!!

You went back to the girl that played you and played the one that was true to you. How is that fair? But I will be fine without you, in fact soon I will be doing great again. I deserve so much more than what you gave me!