chiqueangel

I feel stupid for always being there for you and making huge efforts to make you happy and this is what you repay me and you make me feel as if it's all my fault! I hate it when you do this as if I don't exist at all. I've done everything for you. I showered you with love and affection. I've changed everything for you yet it's not enough for you. Stupid me for falling for you!

I want to text you to ask how are you but I'm doing all that I can to resist is so I won't feel rejected if you don't reply. I want to know how's your life without me but it's better left not knowing because I might end up hurting when you tell me that you're life is fine without me.

I'm tired of thinking about you when I know for sure you're not thinking about me. I'm tired of feeling hurt and affected by you. I want to be happy without you. I want to be a better person. I want to forget you.

I have realized that there's no point for us to be friends. There's no point of communicating. What is your purpose to stay in my life, just for me to hang there so you can easily find me. I don't want that! I want serious stuff and if you can't give that to me, then I don't deserve to be treated this way.

I don't feel good today. I wanted to text you for me to smile but I have to stop myself from this since it might annoy you since you said that you feel like it's your responsibility to reply whenever I text. It doesn't mean that you need to make me feel like crap anytime you want me to. You want to see me, the next time you hate me. I gave you what you want yet you treat me like garbage. I hate it! I know I am not useless. I know I have worth and I deserve better. I gave you everything you deserve without asking anything in return but you still chose to break my heart. You're such an a******!!!!

I am trying to avoid you because I want to move on with my life wherein fact you are the one who suggested that I need to help myself move on with my life. Yet, here you are, wanting to hang out with me. wanting to visit me at home. I don't understand why the hell you still want to see me. You broke up with me yet you have the guts to find a way to see me. I want to think that you miss me that's why you want to see me but that's not enough for me. You know that I am still weak because you know that I love you. I have to be strong and make you see that I will be fine without you. That you're going to miss me everything about me. You made the decision to leave. Now, I want to let you go for my sake to learn how to be by myself, without depending on you.