My wife and I have been married almost a year this month {28th}.
For the last year we have struggled in so many areas, but I have kept trying. recently, financially, we lost everything, and I had to move my wife back in with her mother and father. Since then, obviously the strain on our relationship has been even greater. I and my wife are Christians, but her family is not. They continue to talk badly about me and my wife has bought into the idea that I am not a provider.
Prior to her moving in with her family and I moving into a friends house, after 2 weeks on the street, we found out she was pregnant. I have to the best of my ability been there for her, going to the doctors visits, calling her every day, arranging insurance for her medical visits and coverage, and trying to be patient with her ever increasing agitation and meanness.
But, I have grown weary. Every time I talk to her she yells at me or curses. She only tells me she will be back with me if I can insure the future financially and otherwise. I tell her I cannot do that, but I can and have tried.
Recently, we talked over the phone and she yelled at me for not ordering her the wrong prescription from the doctors and told me her mother and her were going to handle everything related to the baby. She wouldn't even take my phone number down in case of emergency. She said she didnt care to and never wanted to speak with me again.
She even had her sister tell me the same and then hang up on me.
For the last year I worked every day but lost my job to attend to her depression and suicidal tendencies. She never helped me. I did the laundry and made the meals and did the best I could. Yes I made mistakes but I too am human.
She always tells me that "she is the one pregnant" and that I don't care, but I respond that if I didn't care I wouldn't keep trying to do all the things I mentioned above.
Well, I have had it! I'm tired of getting beat up emotionally. She doesn't seem to ever get that I'mn involved in this whole thing too and how much I sacrificed for her. And, it seems like her love is now conditional on how much money we have etc. I understand her need for future security and have been working hard to do that, even working at a restaurant to provide for her and save money. I have tried rekindling our romance, and expressing my love for her through actions such as taking her out to dinner and such. Nothing works more than a few days anymore and she has become such a different person. I feel as though I should not have married her. There has been no infedilety, except in spirit it seems.
I wanted things to work but I'm tired as I said.
Well, I am considering divorce. Yet, I want to take care of our baby, even if that means filing for custody. She won't any longer contact me regarding how she and the pregnancy is going. What should I do? Should I file for divorce and then proceed with custody after the baby is born.
And, moreso, how do I heal my broken heart?
