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It hurt SO much in the beginning to see my ex's profile but now I've managed to control myself and not look at it. I don't want to delete him because to me, it seems a little childish...but I DO understand that it might be easier for a lot of people to move on if you cut off Facebook. If you're finding that you can't resist the temptation to look, then by all means, do it! Don't cause yourself more pain! Hehe.. I also use my Facebook profile to post up photos and update every once in a while to show him all the improvements and changes I'm making in my life.. heehee Well, I guess that only works if he's been tempted to look at my profile...

Omg I'm going to go absolutely crazy. I'm on the verge of contacting you... This pain is too much... I can't do it any longer!!!!

I just had my first day of work as an English tutor.. It was a really good day. I forgot about how much I actually liked kids until today. Gosh, I wish I could tell you about it. You're always the first person I tell good news to, and now I can't I miss you so much.

Ugh tonight has been just horrible. I've been crying for almost an hour nonstop. All I did was creep your facebook profile, and I shouldn't have done that. It's so hard to see that you're still there but I can't contact you I miss you like crazy.... I miss you more than anything. Do you know that?

Sometimes I like seeing you in my dreams, because that's the only time I ever get to see you. That's the only time I ever get to kiss you.

Day 9: I hope you're doing well. I hope you're proud of me for showing you that I can be strong and give you the space you need. I'm coming back for you.

Once again, I'm crying. I'm having such a hard time trying to move on from what we had. I was having such a great time hanging out with my friends this afternoon, until I saw a couple holding each other on the skytrain, and suddenly I just broke down... It's only been 8 days since we've gone NC, and today feels like one of the hardest days ever. I miss you so much. Do you ever think of me? I dreamt last night that we kissed. I dreamt that you held me. I'd do anything to make that dream come alive again. I love you. I want a new relationship with you, but I have to learn to be strong, happy, and independent again before that happens. I'm sorry I broke so many promises to you. I'm sorry for ever hurting you. I'm sorry I was so immature. I'm making a lot of changes in my life. I'm doing everything that I should have done while we were together... I'm sorry I made you the centre of my world. I'm sorry I put so much pressure on your shoulders to make me happy. I'm sorry I was so needy. I'm sorry for being so clingy even though I knew you had a career to focus on. You are my first love, and I can't let you go until I've tried one more time. 2 months until I say hi to you. 2 more months until I have a chance at reconciliation.

I also believe that reconciliation is always possible. It really does just take time, patience, and a willingness on one end to work things out again. I think that you have to be able to let go of your previous relationship with your ex in order to be able to be in the right mindset to start a new one with your ex. Instead of trying to jump back into things, you should try approaching your ex like a "friend"... somebody that you're just getting to know all over again And over time, if things work out hopefully, feelings will start to develop again!