Once again, I'm crying. I'm having such a hard time trying to move on from what we had. I was having such a great time hanging out with my friends this afternoon, until I saw a couple holding each other on the skytrain, and suddenly I just broke down... It's only been 8 days since we've gone NC, and today feels like one of the hardest days ever.
I miss you so much. Do you ever think of me?
I dreamt last night that we kissed. I dreamt that you held me. I'd do anything to make that dream come alive again.
I love you. I want a new relationship with you, but I have to learn to be strong, happy, and independent again before that happens.
I'm sorry I broke so many promises to you. I'm sorry for ever hurting you. I'm sorry I was so immature.
I'm making a lot of changes in my life. I'm doing everything that I should have done while we were together...
I'm sorry I made you the centre of my world. I'm sorry I put so much pressure on your shoulders to make me happy.
I'm sorry I was so needy. I'm sorry for being so clingy even though I knew you had a career to focus on.
You are my first love, and I can't let you go until I've tried one more time.
2 months until I say hi to you. 2 more months until I have a chance at reconciliation.