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  1. Hey guys, I wanted to add something on this post. My ex of 5 1/2 years that broke up with me 2 1/2 months ago wanted me back. Gave the whole lecture about missing me, biggest mistake, regretting it, me being it for him, and all that. I am sad to say that I couldn't accept because I feel like he needs to make life improvements because he hasn't changed anything for the better but I on the other hand made my life so much happier and grew. He needs to get his stuff together and find the real reason we broke up. We were long distance too so I guess that shows you anything is possible. I was NC for 2 months until he contacted me ...He couldn't take it anymore. He said NC hurted him. Like I mentioned previously before on here, who knows what the future holds. I'm seeing someone new and seeing where it goes.... I never thought he'd want to be with me again.
  2. I used to come to this thread every day and read it over and over for hours. I was really obsessed with the thought of me and my ex getting back together. I don't think a bit of hope hindered the healing process. I think it's natural to go through that phase of wanting them again. It's been about 2 months and I've accepted the break up, I think that if we got together it wouldn't be the same, I see the flaws in my past relationship, and I'm seeing someone new. I try not to think about the future and it's hard but I'm just letting myself know that in the future if he does want to give it another shot I'd be willing to try again with a fresh clean slate. I'm not expecting us to get another shot but just saying it'd be nice and the door isn't completely closed and locked on him.
  3. Hi, I haven't kept track of what day NC it is. Give me a moment to think...Day 32 of NC. Time passes by so quickly since our break up and I don't know why. I think of you less, but I still think of you every day. It doesn't hurt to think about you, I don't think it'd hurt to talk to you but I think it would sting if I knew who you were with and if you have moved on quick. I know you would be surprised and a bit upset how fast I moved on too...I'm surprised at myself. A month and I'm doing good even though it's been 5 1/2 years. I'll never forget you, I'll always love you...as long as you stay who you are. I don't even know if I want to be with you anymore honestly. I know we had a great relationship but if we get back together it'll never be the same. We'd have to start all over. You know, there were a lot of things you did in the relationship that would bother me so much now if we got together. You'd do things that cause me so much pain and not care about how I felt enough to change it. You mostly cared about yourself and that was the problem. So yeah, I'm looking for someone that has your great qualities but also would make me happier than you did. I love you, you're such a great person, but I have moved on now. I hope one day when I finally talk to you that we can still have a wonderful friendship and keep that.
  4. Ha, okay maybe I lied to myself. I was barely thinking of you...BARELY...and now all the memories come flooding back. Ugh.
  5. I think I'm finally moving on...I have met someone I'm interested in and he feels the same. I think going out with him just to get to know him is a step. He seems fun... of course no one compares to you but I'm trying to not compare. I think I'll always love you in some way and be attracted... I'm going to date around now but I hope we have a second shot in the future whenever that may be. If not, I hope we can be good friends at least because you're too much of a good person to lose in my life. You're one of the few in this world with such a golden heart.
  6. Hey, I wonder what you're doing tonight. I'm going to go out and try to have fun...although it'd be hard to not think of you. I wonder if we have a possibility of another shot in the future =(
  7. I can't believe almost a month has past by and we've been over for this long after 5 1/2 years. How could you just throw away everything that we worked so hard for? I am still confused, you're still confused, I wish I could just get some answers! Do you even know what's going on? I haven't talked to you in almost 3 weeks and I've never gone this long without hearing from you. I know I told you to leave me alone to heal for a couple months but I really wish you would've texted me "Happy Birthday" or something to show you miss me or are thinking of me. I know you are though because I see you on Facebook on my friends' pages and refer to me. I hope that you're taking this chance to reflect on our relationship and see what happened. I would love for us to be together again one day but as each day passes I'm realizing that now isn't the best time because I do have a lot of learning to do. I thought I could grow while in a relationship, and as good as our relationship was, I have grown tremendously over the past 3-4 weeks than ever before. I love you so much, I think of you all the time, and it's hard to try to think of anything bad about you or your faults because I accepted them and loved you. I would've supported you while you were deployed, I would've waited...I wonder if you'll ever find any girl like me who has a love for you as strong as I did.
  8. Day 16 of NC. I notice my ex is starting to write on my friends' facebook pages. I think he's trying to get me to "think" of him even for a while. He never wrote on their pages until I went NC (including defriending him)
  9. Day 14 NC. I miss him a lot, I think of him, I miss him, I love him, I want him back one day. Three weeks ago he broke up with me and ended our 5 1/2 year relationship. It was on pretty good terms...I think more clearer every day. I realized a lot of things about our relationship like my faults, great memories, why this could have happened. I noticed every time it's the end of the week I have a strong urge to contact him. I wait a while and see if I still feel this way, and end up not so I wait it out. I'm doing NC to heal so that I can be able to talk to him again without pain. I'm trying to move on with life and I know that in the end I will be happy with or without him. This is my time to focus on me and improve myself.
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