ImGrowing

What the hell was I thinking???!!!! blah. Day 3 of NC!

I really miss you But, I know I have to let you go. I have to. I don't know why this is so much harder on me than it is on you, but I know it's because this is what you truly wanted. So, I have to be strong... I know it's going to take time. It's been 2 months since the break up, but only 2 days since complete NC. I have to move on... how? I'm still trying to figure that out. But, I can't give up... I have to throw in the towel and walk away. It seems like I threw in the towel, but I'm still standing at the pile... I'm so tempted to pick it back up, but I wont. I'm staring at it, but I'm working on turning my back away first... then, taking the first step away from the pile...us...the relationship.........you. It's hard... so hard. But, I'm doing it.