curiocity

I miss you. I dont know what happened. I wanted an adult mature relationship. But we could never get a conversation going babe. This guy you are with now, he may make more money than me now, but he has 10 years on me. I am the most successful person I know in my age group - solid income, job, ambition. You dont think I'd be twice as rich as he is in 10 years? But babe, you loved my humor and sex was great. So why are you being so short sighted. Why dont you see the distance? I know i made mistakes. I was protecting myself. I am sorry babe. One last chance to make it right. I miss your house and your deck. I miss the smell of you. I miss the clothes you wore. I miss everything about that house. I am broken down. I am extremely sad. And all I have left are these imperfect memories of you and me. Things will look up some day. But tonight darling, I just want to die in your arms.

here here .......

sorry i was just trying to say some things

I wish I could go back to 2003. there is so much I would do differently. So much. I need love.

Its because back in 2003 not a lot of people brokeup with each other. How the times have changed. Its the global warming I tell ya.

I still love you. I always did. I'm sorry to love you so. I wish I could stop.

I thought we would take time off, heal, learn and some day reunite. But every time I tried to look into your life from the outside (in whatever small way I could) I found you making future plans without me. You made sure I knew about these plans and it makes me wonder whether you were punishing me for something. All I did was love you. Were you trying to break me down further so I would be groveling more? But I was always begging you while we were together. What else did you want from me? Your post-breakup behavior really was an eye opener. I was so depressed that my brain hurt and you then made sure that I knew that you were happy. I knew it was in some way your way to move on. I guess some of us need to hurt the other to move on.

Hehehe....I thought you were gonna tell him to shove it some place else...lol

My first time here: Dear A, I hope you are doing well. I am fine. I am not sure you are still using this email address. Also not sure whether you would have wanted to hear from me. But I need to write a few things. See the thing is that after we broke up, I went through a very difficult time. There still are days when I get down about it. but overall the quality of my life has improved over time to the point now that I feel back on track again. I traveled a lot, leanred new skills, met new people. So overall, life looks ok. There is only one problem and that is, you are the only person in the world I am in a ‘no contact’ zone with, and that just tells me that everything is not ok with my world, my life. I don’t want to live in a world where there is one person I don’t talk to, especially when that person has been the dearest of friends to me. So I am writing you to exit my ‘no contact’ zone and say my peace. Its your prerogative to never reply. Dear A, life with you was full of love and fun times, and I loved every moment of it. and I am now very happy that you are no longer the person I don’t talk to. I hope you are very happy, and I wish you a great life full of love and joy! Yours sincerely, - curiocity