Charlotte12

There's so much I would say to you if I could. But you decided to push me away from you in the worst way possible. Wish I could hate you for all the things you have done...but the thing is, I don't think I can. Because in spite of the horrible way turned things out, you have been more than good to me the past six years. I don't know if I have lived in a lie all this years...but I had been very happy. Will we ever talk again? I don't know...it seems that you got over me very fast. I try and try not to think about us but it is hard. You were my best friend. You were the love of my life. I felt lucky to be the woman next to you. You said just a few months ago I was the woman of your life. I was the love, and everything to you and you would always be there for me. You told me I would never lose you. And I believed it. I believed (because you had never lied to me before...or at least, you did it pretty well because I hadn't found out) with all my heart that you were just taking some time off. That you needed time. When I saw the picture I thought no one could be hurting me this much. You were with another woman, just a month and a half away from our break up. I haven't talked to you in a month and you haven't contacted me either. Every day that goes by, I realize we are over for good. But for some reason, I still keep wondering why did you do this to me? How could you fall in love with someone else so quickly? If you are not in love with that someone new, why did you leave me? We had a great relationship...and you know we did. And as much as I hate to say it. I still love you. I love the person who was with me for six years and showed me all the love in the world. How could you be so dishonest after all we have been through? Do you think I deserved to be treated that way? How can you hurt someone like that so much without any kind of remorse? I hope one day, you could regret what happened. How you threw me away as if I was disposable and meaningless to you. I hope you could feel really sad about leaving someone you loved and hurting me so much. I will continue to feel sad about losing something so special to me like it was our relationship while you continue to ignore and ditch me for the rest of my life.